"In Christ Alone"

 

In Christ alone, my hope is found;

He is my light, my strength, my song;
This cornerstone, this solid ground,
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My comforter, my all in all—
Here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone, Who took on flesh,
Fullness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness,
Scorned by the ones He came to save.
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied;
For ev'ry sin on Him was laid—
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay,
Light of the world by darkness slain;
Then bursting forth in glorious day,
Up from the grave He rose again!
And as He stands in victory,
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me;
For I am His and He is mine—
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death—
This is the pow'r of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No pow'r of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home—
Here in the pow'r of Christ I'll stand.

I don’t know how to …..now. What I have done was mistaken by someone due to my incorrectly expression. That doesn’t matter to me but which forces me have to give him my cold shoulder that I am not willing to.

Forget it !

 

"No one has favored me more than God. He has removed every stain of my sin, He has cleansed all the defilement of my iniquity, and He has silenced every voice of condemnation that hung over my head. He has saved me, redeemed me, and justified me"

Lord, I am SO sorry, I didn't know Your heart and Your will. But You have send the angel to show me Your wisdom. How many people in the world know Your heart ? They don't know You and hate you even blame You are so brutel to the human kind. We are all not deserved to live in the world without Your love. But they all take your grace in granted and never realize that those are from You.  Lord, You show Your wisdom to me. How can I do for You now? I still feel so guilty, How can I be a soldier for You? Use me if You think I am qualified to and train me. Thanks for Your teaching.
Nothing is worthful without doing for YOU!

" By him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is, the fruit of our lips giving thanks to his name. "
Hebrews 13:15 (KJV)

Father gave me a very important lesson yesterday. He put me into a very challenged situation which I have never met before. The  behaver  I  revealed  yesterday was so immatured and show little faith to God. It was such a stressful day that I almost run out of all my energy and felt sick.  We all can be calm in the smooth situation. Only under a certain difficult one can reveal our true life in our deep heart. God take the advantage of that thing teach me I still need to trust in Him more. Yes I am glad to and need to. I feel renew today for I know Father cares me and never be indifferent to me. I am His treasure and awesome daughter.

Thanks Father and my boss' family and Janet. Thanks for their encouragement by God's teaching. It seems no way ahead, and we could do nothing by ourselves. But we all believe that God knows how to deal with it and He will control it. There is no use at all the worry about it. Thanks Father again ! Thanks for Your love!

It is so dangerous to look around the  way of  my  non believer  peers.  No joy at all and overwhelmingly lonely and have no more strength to love others but anxious to be love. I don't thing I can do anything to all the friends around me now. They all have their own happyness. They are taken care  by  their parents or boyfriend. Eventhough their lifes  are full of  up and down. But it applys to all humanbeing. So  how about myself? I am falling in to the pit of confusion. What is God's will on me? No answer echoes.....I need to be lift up....

Like a dry tree far away from the brook, or the injured eagle not able to fly higher any more.....

Merciful Lord, how can I praise you enough ? How little I worth? Why you chose me and love me. How could You love me so? Even when I give you my cold shoulder. Such love I never know. It brings me to my knees, on my face. "It brings no joy, this old life that pulls me from You. Yet I find myself drawn away. Tempted to continue in sin. Acting as if grace is not mine. But God, You crucified my sin and raised me to live a new life".

How beautiful your words left to us. I would like to meditate on them every moment. I miss the time when I be with You all the time and You bless me your amazing peace and your joy  "And I set my heart to seek and search out by wisdom concerning all that is done under heaven; this burdensome task God has given to the sons of man, by which they may be exercised. I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and indeed, all is vanity and grasping for the wind" Ecclesiastes 1:13,14.(我专心用智慧寻求查究天下所作的一切事， 乃知神叫世人所经练的是极重的劳苦。我见日光之下所作的一世事， 都是虚空，都是看捕风。。。我又专心察明智慧、狂妄和愚昧，乃知这也是捕风。。。)

你还说“少年人哪，你在幼年时当快乐。在幼年的日子，使你的心欢畅，行你心所愿行的， 看你眼所爱看的， 却要知道，为这一切的事，神必审问你。所以你当从心中除掉愁烦，从肉体克去邪恶，因为一生的开端和幼年之时，都是虚空”

I am not wise enough to understand all you write to me. But I know You are the only One who cares me all the time even when I am not in this world. Teach me to do more things for You. Crucify my old life , Lord. Change my heart and be like You more. Cauze that is the only worthy thing You will count on my life book. Give me more strength to carry the cross You need me to experience......Teach me how to waiting for You. Keep my heart always focus on You!

"Lord, do not rebuke me in Your anger, nor chasten me in Your hot displeasure. Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am weak; O Lord, heal me, for my bones are troubled. My soul also is greatly troubled; But You, O Lord--how long? Return, Lord, deliver me! Oh, save me for Your mercies' sake! For in death there is no remembrance of You ; In the grave who will give You thanks?"(Psalm 6: 1-5)

"Who can understand his errors? Cleanse me from SECRET faults. Keep back Your servant also from presumptuous sins; Let them not have dominion over me....Let the words of my mouth and meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight."(Psalm 19:12-14)
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"他赦免你的一切罪孽，医治你的一切疾病。 他救赎你的命脱离死亡，以仁爱和慈悲为你的冠冕 他用美物使你所愿的得以知足，以致你如认鹰返老还童 。。。。。。 耶和华有怜悯，有恩典，不轻易发怒，且有丰盛的慈爱 他不长久责备，也不永远怀怒。 他没有按我们的罪过待我们，也没有照我们罪孽报应我们。 天离地何等的高，他的慈爱向敬畏他的人也是何等的大； 东离西有多远，他叫我们的过犯离我们也有多远。 父亲怎样怜恤他的儿女，耶和华也怎样怜恤敬畏他的人"---诗篇103 “神的道是活泼的，是有功效的，比一切两刃的剑更快，甚至魂与灵，骨节与骨髓，都能刺入，剖开，连心中的思念和主意都能辨明。并且被造的，没有一样在他面前不显然的，原来万物，在那与我们有关系的主眼前，都是赤露敞开的”。希伯来书4：12，13 I am not able to apprehended these scriptures until I really experience Himself. It is SO amazing His words promise to us. I am not able to deny His love which He promised to give to me, which He adopted me as His daughter and be with me in the rest of all my life. I am glad I have already got this treasure. Give all my thanks to this Heavenly Father.

"Child of My love, lean hard,
And let Me feel the pressure of thy care;
I know thy burden, child. I shaped it;
Poised it in Mine Own hand; made no proportion
In its weight to thine unaided strength,
For even as I laid it on, I said,
'I shall be near, and while she leans on Me,
This burden shall be Mine, not hers;
So shall I keep My child within the circling arms
Of My Own love.' Here lay it down, nor fear
To impose it on a shoulder which upholds
the government of worlds. Yet closer come:
Thou art not near enough. I would embrace thy care;
So I might feel My child reposing on My breast.
Thou lovest Me? I knew it. Doubt not then;
But Loving Me, lean hard."

 

It is so encouraged to hear and believe Father's promise.

Dad haven't get me rid of the loneliness though my new boss has come. I don't have co-worker or partner whenever I meet trouble or question which makes me desperated lean on Dad.

It just like when we knock that golden door and cry for His help, but it remained unmovable, as though it were rusted upon its hinges.

Now, I see, our Lord, when He has given great faith, has been known to try it by long delayings, which pleases Him to bid our patience exercise itself.

Yes, Dad gives our enough grace or power to overcome our difficulties. The lesson He needs to give us will never stop which might filled with bittersweet but leads us to Himself closer. He is here and holding my hands. I won't be lonely for He knows me.

I am looking forward to seeing His face which might smile to me....

I really don't want to be called a person who prejudices against Chinese but flatters foreigners. Only have some sigh with emotion that I really enjoy the environment which has many bro.s and sis.s pr for each other and love each other in Dad's family.

I envy my Da ge, Jon, in American has many awesome friends who I also desire to have. I can't help stopping reading Jon and his friends's blogs and being so fascinated in their writings and comments. I can say it is truly luck to be rised in that kind of place.

Here is so different in China, at least still this generation, though I am so eagerly to find some one who also would like to be a passionated pursuer of Dad above, but it is too rare to find one!No comment if that is Dad's arrangement. Most people including almost my friends around  consider me as an "alien". Fine, I like it!

So glad to find that there are so many peers on the other side of the world and with different color skins are still my bro.s and sis.s. but what make me sad is that we can't talk face to face and contact with each other. They don't know me.

It seems I am indeed "green" and naive and lonely some times. Well, I won't plunge into sorrow because I know who is my best friend and will company with me 4ever in this journey, even I am alone with Him. No, I won't be alone always. Dad knows what I need best for me and He has prepared the most appropriate gift to me. His faithfulness reaches to the clouds, His righteousness is like the great mountains and His judgments are a great deep!